22 years ago I came into this world. 9/28

Today is my birthday and I am more than elated by all the LOVE that I have received today. Not now and will I ever take any of it for granted, so I would like to thank everyone for all the birthday wishes! Especially Kansas State women basketball division...Thank you Erica! Again this means so much to me. 

Currently I am getting ready for my Bee-day dinner...I'm hungry but I also have a itch to get deep and share what I have learned in my last 22 years but I will save that for another post! ;)  

He Never Left...Even After 3 Months

“Is he okay? He must be okay. Nobody said anything so he must be okay. Find out how he doing and let me know.”

I was irritated that she didn't have any answers for my questions but when I hung up with Quicie I went back my cheery mode I’d had before because I just knew that Wic was okay. After all it was Wic, my little cousin who was the sweetest ever. I was more than optimistic because not once had I ever heard of him getting in major trouble, last I knew that he was doing well at Kentucky state and progressing in life so I never worried about him, not even after having heard he’d been shot.

I was still in good spirits having had just came back from hearing Tony Gaskins speak and I felt good like I could take over the world after the speech I’d heard. Even when Quicie called back I was good, I had my mouth full of food my cousin Nysa had brought back from a birthday party and I was even more happy that she thought about me, and that I didn't have to make a late night trip to In-N-Out.  By then I was already waiting to hear Quicie say what I already knew, which was that Wic was okay. It was Wic…nothing could be wrong with Wic…Right?

“He gone itty.” Quicie said. And I lost my breath and my appetite with a mouth full of food. 

“Qucie not Wic. Quicie?” I was waiting for her to tell me something else…that he was okay, what I had expected and just knew I would hear. 

“Qucie not Wic! Quicieee Qucieee not Wic!” I said the same three words over and over as the tears started flooding down, then I couldn't control breathe, she had taking my air.

 I rushed out of the side door, I was grasping for air and I needed air.

 I made it down the steps before dropping to my knees. “Quicie not WIc.” I repeated over and over hoping she would change what she said but she didn’t.

“Yes itty, its Wic.”

Not Wic. Not Wic. I could deal and expected that he just got shot and that he could recover, that I would see him at the family reunion or Thanksgiving or even on FaceTime. That he would be okay, but not he was “gone.” No, but the real truth is that he wasn't or isn't gone as Kecie said in her poem, “knowing Wic, he never left” because in our memories, joys, cries, and our souls you’re still here! R.I.P Wali “Wic” Clanton. November 1, 1992 - June 13, 2015

Wic, we all miss you so much. I was talking to Grandma earlier and she was saying how it still doesn't feel real after 3 months. It doesn’t, and even now I’m not worried about you because I know Uncle Ali got you, and that I’ll see you again one day in the sky after I’ve grown old and gray, and left a mark on the world that can’t be erase… Until then rest easy baby boy. 

The Sensation of Comfort By Everlecia #Volume2

    They were magnets. She was convinced as yet again she found herself back in the arms of his comfort. Feeling that maybe they have never skipped a beat on their many months apart. But the truth was that they were on a ticking time bomb that intensified the moment. She knew better because they'd been there before, still In their limited moments together she wanted the fantasy to last. Naively forgetting that their comfort meant that neither of them could grow. They were trying relive the good times... But It couldn't and wouldn't last long, because they wanted different things. Differences that left them thousands of miles apart even when she layed right to him..

    So it seemed simple that their solution was to stay away from each other but it wasn't that easy. So much time was invested, unforgettable memories were made and families were introduced. And even when she thought she was moving on, someone would mention his name, and oh that alone brought her comfort. Because despite their mishaps he was the only one that had a true affect on her. She let him see every version of herself from the vulnerable girl who revealed her deepest dreams to the fighter who kept still kept everything suppressed inside.  He was the only person she didn't have to be the girl who had it all together. That's why he was the one who she dared to share so many firsts with.

     Over and over the foolish gal found herself longing for his comfort. Convincing herself that they would grow into the same direction.... But after months no years she found herself weary and without hope, and soon the girl he thought he knew would be exposed to more. The act of making love to ones mind, and without being touched she had found herself falling for another... And slowly but surely the sensations of comfort were replaced with someone like her equal, but soon she would realize that in the end that "comfort" still ruled her mind body and soul.. With a hold that was infuriating, and that wouldn't allow her to move on beyond her borders of comfort... 

His Legacy... R.I.P Wali "Wic" Clanton

This piece, this fictional story is dedicated to my little cousin Wali “Wic” Clanton who was killed last night, for now I know how it feels to have someone ripped from you when you were just looking forward to seeing their growth, and watching how beautiful their story turned out to be. Unfortunately the chance was taken from you Wic, but I love you forever and always, and just as I inspired you, your life has inspired me. So this is for you and all the other Wic's around the world who will never get to live their story, and for the girlfriends, wives, and mothers who won’t ever get to see their loved ones live out their story.

                                                              Legacy: A Short Story by Everlecia Taylor 

His appearance would give you different impression of the boy I'm about to describe, his ostentatious ways made many assume that he was up to no good. Whenever he hung with his friends his expression was always unfriendly, he was a hard shell with them but I felt lucky to be the only one to crack that shell. With me he felt safe to reveal his true gentleness, because growing up where he grew up such a thing was considered a weakness. I got to see every side of him, and this is what made me like a moth to his flame.

In relationships girls usually are the talkers but not in our relationship, he was the talker. He was great communicator and never cease to express his feelings, he was special and I clung on to every word he said. To me he was also something like a story teller as he talked about the life we would one day have together.  After graduation we were both moving to Atlanta, which was only four hours away from home so whenever we missed everyone we would make a trip to see the family. Once in Atlanta I would go to clark on scholarships that he and I both searched high and low for and he would go to the community college while starting his first company selling bowties. I knew that it didn't matter what he sold because he had confidence and ambitious that I knew—I believed he would succeed in whatever he pursued.

After college we would get married, and then two years down the road I would have his first child—his legacy. If it was a girl her name would be Ashley, after his grandmother and if it were a boy it could be anything that wasn't his name, Dash. His intentions were to break a family curse by not naming his son after he and his father. His father was rarely there but his lack of presence made him more aware of how he wanted to be when his time to be a father came. His awareness made him the most self-aware person I knew.

Only once did I allow a friend to say he was no good for me, when she and everyone around us never gave him a chance.. They had prematurely ruled him out because of his dread locks and nose piercing but he was smart, and he taught me more than I could ever teach him. He taught me how to love myself, before I could love anyone else as he was a prime of example of what that looked like, and most of all he taught me that no matter where we come from we can choose to think differently and rise above any stereotype if we seek knowledge. On top of his wisdoms, his soul was even more beautiful, on how he cared almost to a fault for everyone around him including me and I got to witness that, and for me that is his legacy that I will carry with me. 

As I stand here before you today, giving an eulogy for the only boy I’ve ever loved, I finally have to admit that we won’t to get live out our story together but he will forever be in my heart. In my memories of him I won’t think about the bullets that pierced his heart in his last hours here on earth, but I will think about the little things, like the time he brought me flowers, our first kiss, our 5 hour conversations, and the way he revealed his true self to me. Now being here without him I will continue to live out our story, and move on only knowing that he's my new guardian angel, and that I have to live in his light.

The Sensation of Comfort By Everlecia #Volume1

She missed him but missing him had nothing to do with the love they shared, well maybe a little. It had more to do with comfort...he knew her inside out... He knew what buttons to push, he had even found her pause button, the one that in the moment made her feel like everything had stopped in time, and that what they had could last forever. 

        After years of persistence he slowly peeled back her layers. She was a type of science for him...certain faces had ways of telling him instantly when she was at unease.. She rarely had to explain her feelings because those looks always gave her away even when she didn't want them to. 

        She missed the comfort of someone knowing what she liked and didn't like, what made her body sing, and her favorite movies that made her cry. She missed him because of the comfort that he brought, the way he at laughed her jokes as if she was the funniest person in the world, the way he always let her have her way... 

14 lessons from Oprah's book "What I know for sure" that can change our lives for the better.

Oprah Winfrey's book What I know For Sure, has been a page turner for me. From start to finish I was anxious to learn what Oprah--a person who has such a huge impact on the world had to share. And surely after folding back page corners and scribbling down notes, things that are prohibited when using a checked out library book but I just couldn't help myself.
 Now below without further ado, I want to share quick quotes--life lessons from Oprah and some of her mentors that I know will not only benefit my life but yours as well.
I, myself am fully committed to looking over the notes as often as I can, as you should too until we know them like we know our favorite character on our favorite show. So that in turn we can fully and effectively apply them to our own lives.


1. What is the power of Reading? 

 "Reading opens you up..it exposes you and gives you access to anything your mind can hold..it gives you the ability to reach higher ground."

2. What to do when facing difficult decisions? 

"Ask [Yourself] what would I do if I weren't afraid of making a mistake, feeling rejected, looking foolish or being alone?

3. Purpose of sharing stories?

"Extracting the truth of [peoples] experiences and distilling it into wisdom that could inform, inspire, or benefit someone else."

4. How to kill Inferiority complex?

Remember "We are all on the same path, all of us wanting the same things: love, joy, and acknowledgment."

5. Where does change start?

"You can't change what you don't acknowledge." Via Dr.Phil.. Change starts with acknowledging the problem.

6. How are we building our lives?

"Thought by thought, choice by choice." So are you thinking about and doing things that bring you what you desire; Love, wealth, love and happiness.


7. Want help on revealing who you are?

"Everything you do and say shows the world who you are. Let it be the truth. " Remembering actions always speak louder then words. If you are a giver don't talk about what you want to give but actually give.

8. When can you have a peace of mind?

"[When you are] aligned with your heart's desire...in sync with who you're meant to be and how you're suppose to contribute.

9. What does it mean to focus on the present?

"Surrendering what you can't control and focusing on what's right in front of you."

10. Why limit your gossiping?

"Negative has power--and if you allow it to perch in your house, in your mind, in your life, it can take you over...A negative statement is poison." Via Maya Angelou through Oprah

11. Why should you focus on what you are dwelling on?

"What we dwell on is who we become."

12.  Purpose of money? 

"Brings joy to you and the ones you love."

13. Why are the things you do today so important?  

"What you do today creates every tomorrow."

14. Whats the power of decision?

"Nothing happens until you decide." Via Dr. Stanley Turecki through The Oprah Show. Decide what your going to be and then go become it.

Why Beyonce and Jay Z are the greatest!

It's no secret to my close family and friends on how much I love Jay-z and Beyonce. Last week a dream of mine came true when I got to attend their On The Run Tour concert. The show itself was beyond amazing, and I don't want to ruin it for people who plan to watch the show on HBO in the coming months. But I wish to share what I feel was my favorite part of the show, and its not what you would expect to be my favorite because it was a few words not lyrics said by jay-z. Days after the concert his words have been playing over and over in my head over and over.  He said, "dream big and be unrealistic." He also explained that a girl from houston(beyonce) and a boy(him) from Brooklyn being at the stadium performing for all of us was once unrealistic. 

I think that his words touch me so much, because I feel like he is living proof that the sky is really the limit. And even after many people may write you off in life, you still can do it. Overall I think that his small message gave me hope, not just his words but their entire concert because as they played some of their hits that are 10 years old,I realized that it took great time and effort to become the greats that they are. It wasn't overnight that they got to the top level of selling out stadiums. It shows me that I too can become great overtime,  If i do my due diligence, and keep climbing and moving in my career.

@Everlecia